And I can't change even if I try, even if I wanted to

I've been sick for the past week and a half but it hasn't stop me! It sucks tho cause it's the last week of summer vacation.. oh man school.. where the summer went?? I hope I get better, cause my friends and I are going to our summer cottage on weekend so I would hate to be sick then.. 

 I have soo much to do like almost every weekend I have something to do.. How my life got so busy... like all summer I have been at home the whole weekend just two times.. freaking TWO? and till oktober I have left two weekends with nothing.. again TWO haha, busy life.. I just have to deal with it!

I have two days of sickdays from work left and I have to come up something to do with.. any ideas? 

                                   

                                   And if somebody hurts you, I wanna fight

                                But my hands been broken, one too many times

                                   So I'll use my voice, I'll be so f*cking rude

                                   Words they always win, but I know I'll lose

Anything can happen

This month has been amazing! I' have met really awesome and wonderfull people! 

   I' ve been at summer-up which was really cool, cause I've never been in a festival! There were finnish rappers and far east movement from the usa! they were really good :)

 After that I was at the prometheus camp and it was really wonderfull and I got new friends and I miss them a lot! 

  Afterr that I went to pärnu, estonia with my lovely friend Nelli and her relatives and we had so much fun and our couple friends came there too like 4 days later and we met boys from estonia and couple from here in Finland and I hope we will see them still! 

  andd week later here was this meripäivät aka merkkarit as we call it and its this drinking happening haha. There is also live music and small butiks but usually youth drinks for 3 days and It weren't that good that I remembered but fun anyways :)!

 And I found a old dance partner!! Oh my I feel so relief haha. Old dances is like a prom here or no... but anyways you put a dress and dance old dances and then there is this cruise if you want to.. I donno how to explain it better so :D

  

  

All the things you have said all the things you have done, can you carry it with no regrets?

Hey all! I haven't been writing much due to that my weeks are like really busy and to be honest I have forgotten my blog... So yeah I'm here now tho! haha. I have been at just one weekend at home and next month just one weekend so I doubt that I will write again soon..
 I travel a lot by train and I see all kind of people some are carrying their guitars, some have dreads, some have their army suits on, some look really tired, some talk loudly on the phone and some smiles to everyone. Its amazing to see unique people and wonder where they came from. How their life has been so far, Where are they going, Who they might be. Sometimes I wonder if somebody looks at me like that wondering Who am I.
  With in a week I will found myself middle of 24 total stranger living for a week. The campers may have some prejudice towards me and I hope im nothing like things they think about me now. I have to be all grown up then. Think wisely, be a person they will trust their secrets and say things that will make them think of the world more toleranced not so narrow-minded. I hope I will do that. I'm excited to meet them, they are all unique and they have really different stories behind their heads and I hope they will share them with me.
    I have thought a lot about my future now, cause I have seen how bitches even my friends can be so I have thought a lot resently. I just want to move out of here. I don't wanna live in kotka anymore. I love going to my dads and just be careless and dont have to worry about the arguments and people here.. I love my friends here and I know I will miss them when I move out of here but thats just how life goes if they are really my friends they will be my friends even tho we won't see eachother so often. I just want to go and never come back. I just wanna be 18, so I can go traveling and move out and oi I get happy even of the thought of it

If you can't be what you want, You learn to be the things you're not.

Heippa taas! Kauheesti kiireitä, ettei mitää rajaa... Joko oon koulussa, ulkona, nukkumassa tai töissä... wiiiih onneks koht on jo eka vuos lukioo ohi!! ENÄÄN 2 vuotta ja pääsen täältä kotkasta pois :'3 Hihkun jo pelkästä ajatuksesta!
 Tänää oli ihan hirrrmu kiireinen päivä.. koulussa eka ja siitte 4 alko näytelmäharkat ja sitte olin höpöttelemässä juttuja Dream wall- tapahtumassa, joka järjestettii nyt ensimmäistä kertaa ja oli kyl aivan mahtava tapahtuma ja tykkäsin tosi paljon, ja tapasinpa myös pete parkkosen, jonka hiukset on tosi mahtavat! Ja oli se muutenki tosi mukava tyyppi ja juttuu tuli (: vaikka ensin aattelinki ettei se varmaa paljoo meille puhele, koska se on julkkis mutta käsitykseni oli väärässä!
 Mulla on motivaatio ihan hukassa koulun suhteen ei millään jaksais mut onneks koht ohi! Koeviikko viel pitäis jaksaaa... mitäköhä siitäki tulee.. Mul on ihan hirveesti kaikkea tulossa ja ääää missä vaiheessa ehin levätä, mul on päivä lomaa ennen ku alkaa kokoviikkoset työt, ku nyt oon ollu vaa lauantait! Mutta ehkä se tästä (:

Hello again! I have had so much things to do, there is just no limits haha! School, out with friends, sleeping or work..but luckily the freshman year in high school is almost over!! ONLY 2 years and I can get out of Kotka!! :3 ( in case you don't know it's a city in Finland) I can't wate!!!
 Today was reallyyy busy day.. I was first in school and then my play practice started at 4 and then I was talking on stage some I hope.... stuff, it was this Dream-wall happening, which was organized first time now and it was really amazing and I liked it very much! I even met  Pete Parkkonen ( he's a singer from Finland's Idol) whose hair is like awesome! and he was really nice person who talked a lot :) Even though I first thought he wouldn't talk to us, because he is a celebrity but I was so wrong!
  My motivation for school is like zero... I just don't want to be in school no more, but its over soon. Just 2 weeks left! Exam week is coming... shiiiiett maybe I manage haha :D I have like sooo much things to do and aargh when I have even time to rest? I have only a day after my school ends and then my full weeks at work starts, I have now had only saturdays! but maybe I have time to rest at somepoint, but just maybe :p

See the rain and see it's a beautiful mystery

I see the light behind the darkness.
 I feel it coming and filling me inside. I feel happy. I imagine me walking in the deep forest and see the raindrops fall on the leaves and feel the rain on my skin when I dance in the rain and just sunk in to the feeling. I enjoy the moment as I look in the misty forest.
                  I feel coldness creeping up my spine. I wrap myself deeper under the blanket. I stare the view for long time and It just makes me happy and the stress goes away.
                                          I can feel it washing away with the rain
                                                                                                           and I feel relief.

We put our hands up like the ceiling can't hold us.

Haluisin kirjottaa teille tosi pitkän stoorin, mutta en keksi mistä mutta aattelin et voisin laittaa kerrankin kuvia! Koska niitä on tullu oteltuu ku oon innostun nyt tost instast ja löydyn sieltä nimellä eemckiii! Et alkakaa ihmees seuraa jos kiinnostaa! (: Aattelin et voisin alkaa näit pienempii kirjotuksii kääntää englanniks, koska että muutkin ymmärtäis ku vaa me suomalaiset! (:

I would like to write you a long story, but I can't figure out what to write, but I thought that I could put pictures this time! cause I have taken pictures a lot lately. I'm really into Instagram thought I have been against it for long time but now I like it.. and If you want to follow me or come to check it out. If you are interested , you can find it by eemckiii (: I thought I could translate these short posts to English, that also not finnish could read it! Hope you like it!

Pictures that stop you for second

Things happen unexpected.
You just try to live your life and see what happens.